Author Archives: eaglebear204

For the past month or so I have felt busy. Busy in my skin, busy in my head, busy in an unknown direction. I have been bouncing around from this to that and feel overstimulated on a level that I can’t explain. Something is shifting and I sense it and it’s making me feel busy,Continue reading “Changes”

I can’t find the center, or the balance. I feel like I am careening over on one side rather than bouncing up and down from the center. Moderation has left and I am starving with an insatiable appetite for more information as my “work” life pulls me out of alignment and into a hole sizedContinue reading “Rabbit holes”

It’s so strange how holiday traditions change over the years.  My youth was encapsulated by family and I had no idea it was a tradition until it came to an end. Christmas used to be my favorite holiday. I was the instigator of putting up the outdoor lights and would help my dad, who wasContinue reading “Christmas Past”

There is something in the air these days that feels uncertain, I find myself primed for unexpected bad news. Recently different circles in my life have collided with each other over the loss of loved ones, mostly all were unexpected and 3 were children. Working as a speech language pathologist I work with some medicallyContinue reading “The Lost Child”

Thoughts just roll around in my head with no way to get untangled from the mess of cobwebs, never rolling out at a convenient time when I have my computer in front of me ready to hold my purging. Today I sit with it conveniently in front of me and feeling mostly intimidation. Feeling thatContinue reading “Ponderings from a coffee shop”

Is it me or did the mood change with the weather? Is everyone else feeling a little squashed by life? Not wanting to make plans to do anything because it’s suddenly too hot and it costs too much to get anywhere. I don’t want to drive anywhere…not even to a lake to cool down becauseContinue reading “Venting”

Where is my head? I feel fragmented wondering where does the day go, catapulting through time…. did you know it’s already April!? I think I spend too much time looking back in the past thinking “I used to…” playing the what if game in reverse thinking if I could just go back to doing thingsContinue reading “Attention Span”

I’m having a hard time being still.  And I don’t mean still as in sitting in a chair with nothing to do,  covered in a blanket staring out at the snow piling up on the ground kind of still…I mean my thoughts,  my insides,  my being finding stillness.  Quiet stillness. Looking at myself from theContinue reading “Craving”

Sometimes they come in 3s. The death march, catastrophes or really bad luck. 6 years ago, as of yesterday, I unexpectedly lost my Aunt. The minutes following the phone call were numbed by denial so deep I couldn’t feel anything. Grief was delayed temporarily like a damn holding back an enevitable flood. 11 months agoContinue reading “Death March”

Fall was lovely this year. The trees rejoiced having full permission to take their time adorning themselves in glorious gowns of burnt red, fired gold and crisp orange. Basking in the attention of passers-by and peepers hoping for more than just a look. With such a show, Time yelled out “Encore!” holding off the snow,Continue reading “December 21!”